How I Almost Gave Up On My Life

i just wonna take the time right how i almost gave up on my life.

i guess you could say i had an obsession with a girl, i wont mention her name but if shes reading this im sure she knows who she is.
From the time i started getting to know her i was attraced her, it was the way i felt when being around her, i felt happy and peaceful, i was comfortably with being open to her, and ive never been open to anyone in mylife. but i always felt the there was something more to it i could never figure it out and i still havent figured out what it was, but what ever it was it caused my obsession towards her, and it led to me almost losing her as friend and wroste my life. i thought i couldnt live without her, i thought the reason i was alive was because of her, i needed see her as much as i could, this became a burden for her. i didnt realize at the time that it was. she needed space but i wouldnt let happen she started ignoring me, i was scared cos i didnt know what was happening i thought she didnt wonna talk to me again at all. i started becoming suicidal i would find a high building and go to the top stand on the edge and look down but every time i did something inside kept saying, "dont give up" i knew that God speeking to me. eventually i came around and agreed to this girl to take sometime apart, and in that time out of no where i started feeling free, i spent alot of time asking God to help me through it and he did. and now im back to being friends with her again and things are still the same as they where before the only difference is i dont feel i need her to help me, even though she still does. as for my faith in God at the moment it's great but i wont go there its another story.