things just get wrose

things just get wrose Mum thinks its the end of the world Jackie wont stop aguing with Mum, i hear her cyring, shes moving out tomorrow. i try not to rely on my best friend but shes the only one i can rely on at the moment. i pray but my prayers feel empty, why hasnt God come through yet what am i doing wrong.
suicide is on my mind but i dont do it cos id hate to put that burden on my friends.
in the end i really just have God to help me out, im just waiting for him to come through

WWJD

what would he do?
what would he do?
what would Jesus do?
WHAT WOULD HE DO!!!

my God will not stand here and watch this world fall apart.
my God will not abandon nor forsake us.
my God will not leave us hungry.
my God, my God will not fail.
MY GOD WILL NOT FAIL!!!


theres no love greater than your love.
theres no name higher than your name.
theres no love greater than your love.
theres no name higher than your name.
there no God greater than you O God.



my God will not stand here and watch this world fall apart.
my God will not abandon nor forsake us.
my God will not leave us hungry.
my God, my God will not fail.
MY GOD WILL NOT FAIL!!!



my faith is in you.
my hope is in you.
my trust is in you.
my life in you.


GOD TAKE MY LIFE AND MAKE IT YOURS!!!


what would he do?
what would he do?
what would Jesus do?
WHAT WOULD HE DO!!!

she noticed me sitting alone in a nightglub after missing the last train home, she sat down next to me and started talking to me, she seems really nice, she asked if i had girlfriend, i say "no" she kisses me, i kissed her back, we exchanged numbers, and then we made out for the rest of the night.


Her name is Mell and i will most likely to see her again :)

My Beliefs

first thing you should no about me i am not a religious person i hate religion as much as Jesus does. yeah that got your attention didnt it?
i just have an awesome friendship with Jesus, yeah his my buddy we hang out and stuff.

i hate the fact that christians are so hypocritical, yeah im a christian and i just admitted that. but not all christians are hypocritical. i realise and understand that were just human and were not perfect only God himself is perfect.

i really wish that people would just get over the fact that not all heavy music is bad.
music is music it's a sound that us humans make not the Devil or even God so it doesnt matter how it sounds, it only matters what and who your doing it for and if it's for God then it's obviously not evil.

i believe that everyone has a right to believe in what they want to believe in, i may not agree with somethings in this world but i respect a persons decisions weather they worship God or some three headed Dog i dont know, but i'll respect a persons decisions cos there are so many things that claim to be the truth and we'll never really know whats right until our lifes have eneded.

i choose to believe that Jesus Christ is my best friend cos there are so many things that are unexplainable like people being healed from cancer, seeing things that just isnt possible or hearing things that things no one else could ever hear. and when i think about these stuff the only thing that i can really think of that makes sense to all this is God.

i've made mistakes, i've tried to run away from God, but in the end i know i cant cos God is my farther, his been there for me when no one else has, is opened up doors that i thought i'd never open, he paid a price that i could never in my life pay back, his the reason i breathe, the reason i wake up in the morning, the reason i strap on a pair of rollerblades, his the reason i live.

My School Teacher

i found an old christmas card from one of my school teachers it says "Dear Quinton, & family, wishing you all a verry merry christmas. Best of luck to you Quinton for 2008 and beyond. Thank you for all your hard work and thanks for bringing you sense of humour into the class room.
Natasha.
PS: dont forget to wear a helmet when rollerblading."


i miss school, really miss school okay yeah i hated the work, but school to me was never about the work. school was a place where i could hang out with friends and coming from a small special school even teachers are friends and yes i said special school, thats something i dont really tell alot of people. So yeah Natasha was my english teacher also one of my best friends in school. in school i had a fairly bad temper like if someone just pushed me i'd go apeshit. Natasha so through that and saw a hurting kid. i remember days when i just didnt feel like being at school Natasha would get me to sit down and talk about my issures, and then she would go get some school books a make me do work :P
She was really amazing and im that she got to be apart of my life, She helped me out alot.
Natasha where ever you are now i just want to say thanks for everything i dont know if i would have made it through school without you





this a photo of Natasha and i on a school camp in 2007 :)

your nothing more than just a fake.
your just a reflection of someone else.
your not the person i see on the inside.
your lies are getting old.
your nothing more than just a fake!



i look into your eyes, and i know you can be so much better than this.
so why do hide behind the lies, when you know you can be so much better.
dont you see that your just wasting your life, we all know you can be so much bettter.
i know that you know, you can be so much better than this.


is it worth it, being some body else?
is it worth it, living someone elses dream?
is it worth it, being someone that your not?
IS IT WORTH IT!?
IS IT REALLY WORTH IT BEING A FAKE!?



i look into your eyes, and i know you can be so much better than this.
so why do hide behind the lies, when you know you can be so much better.
dont you see that your just wasting your life, we all know you can be so much bettter.
i know that you know, you can be so much better than this.



you dont have to live like this.
you dont have to be who they tell you to be.
forget what they say.
forget what they think.
live your life the way you want to.

as many christian hardcore/metal bands there are, the one thing that many christians still dont see is heavy music is not all that bad.

i see so much of myself in her, it scares me cos well i dont know why, it just does. she likes most of the things i like, she has a crazy but muture personality, just like me, she even wears the same kind of cloths as me.
this makes me feel i have to look out for her, even though i know i dont have to i just choose to do.

i feel so isolated right now, like i have no one to go to, i just want be with friends right now i just want someone to tell me they love me.

i think to much and i let my thoughts get to me, and then i end up saying things i dont mean wich makes it even more hard for me and my friends and when there's something i think i should say i hesitaate cos i dont know if thats what i feel and then i just get confused with everything and mess things up.

I Want...

i want to be able to hang out with my sister like i use to when i was a kid.

i want Mum to stop treating me like a 13 year old, i know shes just trying to look out for me but shes goes abit overboard some times.

i want to take some time to go to queensland and tell my farther i love him.

i want to meet the girl of my dreams.

i want to see a solid christian skate ministrie in melbourne.

i want people that call them selfs christians to stop being so judgemental/hypocritical.

i want to see a church thats real and not just another church that tries to keep up with the world.

i want to see rollerblading back in the XGAMES.

i want all these things, not for myself but for the hope of a better world.

This Is My Praise To You

i praise your name, i scream it to you,
i am not ashamed to live for you,
i praise your name, i scream it to you,
and i will stand for what i believe,
Oh God i praise your name!


this is my song to you,
this my prayer to you,
this my praise to you,
Oh God this is all for you.



i stand unahamed,
nothing they say or do can pull me down.
this what i believe, this is where my faith lies,
nothing they say or day will change my mind.
i stand unashamed!



this is my song to you,
this my prayer to you,
this my praise to you,
this my words to you,
Oh God this is all for you.



i know i am not perect, i am only a sinful man.
i know i am nothing without you.
i know my life is worthless without you.
i know know that i would not exist without you.




i praise your name, i scream it to you,
i am not ashamed to live for you,
i praise your name, i scream it to you,
and i will stand for what i believe,
Oh God i praise your name!

Blinded By Religion

when did we stop listening to the words that have been writen?
when did we forget how to live, how to love?
when did we lose faith in the one that saved us?
churches dont seem to line up with what is writen.
we've forgetten how to live, how to love.
we've lost faith in the one that saved us.


i refuse to be apart of your church that has been blinded by religion.
you hypocrite!, i wont let you speak into my life.
i refuse to be apart of your church that has been blinded by religion.
YOU HYPOCRITE
i wont stand here and watch us fall.


when did we stop listening to the words that have been writen?
when did we forget how to live, how to love?
when did we lose faith in the one that saved us?
churches dont seem to line up with what is writen.
we've forgetten how to live, how to love.
we've lost faith in the one that saved us.


your twited words are sickening.
who are you to judge me?
i wont hesitate to put you in your place.
since when did you become God?
you have no right to judge this world.
i wont hesitate to put you in your place!


Enough is enough.
you've crossed the line for the last time.
im sick of your lies.
YOU HYPOCRITE!
I'll put you back in line!

How I Almost Gave Up On My Life

i just wonna take the time right how i almost gave up on my life.

i guess you could say i had an obsession with a girl, i wont mention her name but if shes reading this im sure she knows who she is.
From the time i started getting to know her i was attraced her, it was the way i felt when being around her, i felt happy and peaceful, i was comfortably with being open to her, and ive never been open to anyone in mylife. but i always felt the there was something more to it i could never figure it out and i still havent figured out what it was, but what ever it was it caused my obsession towards her, and it led to me almost losing her as friend and wroste my life. i thought i couldnt live without her, i thought the reason i was alive was because of her, i needed see her as much as i could, this became a burden for her. i didnt realize at the time that it was. she needed space but i wouldnt let happen she started ignoring me, i was scared cos i didnt know what was happening i thought she didnt wonna talk to me again at all. i started becoming suicidal i would find a high building and go to the top stand on the edge and look down but every time i did something inside kept saying, "dont give up" i knew that God speeking to me. eventually i came around and agreed to this girl to take sometime apart, and in that time out of no where i started feeling free, i spent alot of time asking God to help me through it and he did. and now im back to being friends with her again and things are still the same as they where before the only difference is i dont feel i need her to help me, even though she still does. as for my faith in God at the moment it's great but i wont go there its another story.