i feel lonely theres things i want to tell you but ahh! i'm holding back how will take you take it? ah fuck it here it goes.
I wake everyday knowing it’s just another pointless day I get up I go to work, go for a skate, Sundays go to church, Wednesday fortnight go to urban life. I lost faith in God, don’t know if I believe there is a God. I feel lonely my mum can’t understand me, my sister is just so selfish and growing with out a farther I find it hard to trust anyone I don’t even trust my urban life leaders I know I should but I find it hard to. Yeah I have friends but there just friends I hang out with don’t really talk to them about how I feel. Suicide has been on my mind lately, like it would so much easier to leave this world nothing to worry about, why don’t I leave this world? I’ll tell you why because of you, you’re the only person I trust, you’re my only friend I can sit and talk to, you’re my only friend I really care about, you’re my only I ever got close to, you’re my only friend I love. It’s why I feel this way about you, it’s why I’m okay with just being friends because, I don’t know if I want to be more than just friends but then I kinda do, I just don’t want to lose you because basically you’re all I have.
sometimes all we that we've got are each other, whatever context that may be, friends, lovers, best firneds, it doesnt matter here, we have each other and that counts as something, no need for categorising...if im the only reason your still here, im glad, and flattered! i dont find myself that significant. because its been on my mind lately too, and iv wanted to talk to you and find it hard at the same time. but i am here. always. i understand maybe more than you know. mm xx
ReplyDeletethanks heaps love you :)
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